I received an email from Emily today and I hesitated whether to post it because she is struggling right now. But I have decided to post it because I know how much you all love and care about Emily and I know she could use all the extra prayers to get through this next week. Getting out of the van and walking into the MTC was a huge accomplishment for her and getting on the plane and flying to Texas is going to be an even bigger accomplishment. I am going to be mailing her one more letter Friday afternoon as that will probably be the last one she will get from me before she leaves the MTC and I don’t think she will be able to check her email anymore. If you would like to send Emily a small word of encouragement through me, you can either put a comment at the end of this post or email me at email@example.com before noon on Friday August 27th. Whatever messages I get, I will put in my letter. If I happen to get any after I have already mailed my letter, I will put them in my next letter which I am going to send to the mission home in Texas for her. Thank you again for all your love and support.
Oh and for those that are wondering what ever happened with her toes, we got an earlier email from the MTC saying Emily’s toes were doing so much better and so she did not need to go to the foot doctor. Our prayers are being heard! Here is Emily’s letter:
August 26, 2010
Boy there is so much to tell you and I read through all the other email from my siblings and I only have 12 minutes left. Mom I am really missing home. This is so hard but I am loving the spirit I feel every day. I love you and dad so much. I think of you always. I miss home I am trying to lose myself in the work but it seems I don't know how to do that. I love the letters and the packages I get. I am getting really nervous and wondering if I am ready to leave the MTC! How can I do this? I love the spirit and I just love learning! How can I teach the people about this? How can I get along with my companions? I am just really lost and I just need some words of inspiration!
Mom this is so hard. I hope I can get through this. 18 months is a really long time! Time is not flying by like it is for everyone else. The days are long and I get so tired in classes. I don't sleep well. I am just struggling! I know I need to focus on the Lord which I am trying to do. This is so hard! I can't believe I'm still here. I just don't know what the days bring or what is going to happen? But it truly helps seeing Sister Anderson when she teaches me about the scriptures she give me hope. The funny thing is that she served in my mission when she was younger and she says she loved it there but not the heat.
I'm scared of not being able to do this and that I’ll want to come home and freak out. I'm praying to the Lord lots to help me get through everyday and I always have a prayer in my heart. I'm sorry this e-mail is not up lifting or telling the things you want to hear. But I am sending a tape to you in a couple of days so I hope I get it sent before I leave! I can't wait to talk to you on Wednesday and to hear your voice.
Well I have five minutes and I want to make sure this sends but I love you and I will try my best to do whatever to stay. I love you mom, I miss you and dad lots. Sorry for the sad e-mail. But I love you!
Love Sister Hawkins
Mom I think I will be okay, I just have to trust in the Lord more. Proverbs 3:5-6!